MY HEART IS CURSING

Smile more often

So that with your happy smile,

I can calm my heart from constantly looking for you

Smile more often

So that the world will be jealous of you

Then my heart, which is constantly calling for you

Wouldn’t turn greedy anymore

Chorus

My heart is cursing because it cant say “I love you”

Tears burst and my yearning is flowing and flowing

The sad words that are stuck in my throat like a torn

Is roaming around my ear all day

Why does it have to be you?

Why did I end up loving you?

Even if I am shaking my head

Even if I try to deny it

Now I cant let go of you

I love you forever even you are not looking at me

You wouldn’t know even when I call your names thousand of times

You wouldn’t know even if I wait at that same place

Like a fool I just look at you, this foolish love

You don’t know no matter how much I call you

totally lost

Ya! Am totally lost. I swear I thought I get over it already when I really chat with you. I really thought like that. That's real. Really really really............Don't know why that I when I was in Penang yesterday night, suddenly I have the strong feeling to see him, to talk to him. The feeling was so so so so so strong. And I got so moody for the whole day till I'm back today. I just feel uneasy. Don't feel like talking. Don't feel like eating. Anything anything. Till I online and he said that he will be getting married. What a thunder like news to me. Wtf!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At that time, I was totally stunned and blank out. I didn't know what to do and still, HC continue to pretend again. Hate myself very much to pretend which eventually hurting myself. If, if if, at that time, I would have said YES, will the outcome be different? I wonder...

Why.... Argh..... damn shit! I am totally lost right now. Have been keep on repeating the song dear charl recommend me - 戴佩妮 - 街角的祝福!..

Why why why................ Why me why me why me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Penang trip was so so only because of my bloody bad mood. I don;'t know why I got so moody. Was it signalling that something bad will be happening soon. Ya, the bad news I got just now - HE is getting married!!!!

By the way. I am in love with penang and was eyeing on the residences there already.

Penang :(

Why this face? :( Because I'm still sick. However, I'm feeling very much better compare to yesterday. Please please please, I wanna recover before I go penang. Please God.

Am gonna be very busy tomorrow.

1: Got to wake up early morning and sent the car to Bukit Beruntung workshop for service.
2: Till I reach home will be around evening.
3: By the way, go Temple for praying as promised!
4: Catch Little Nyonya drama, hehe. It was my 3rd time watching it.
5: Catch Justice Pao. nice drama!
6: Fetch cousin. She will be staying overnight here.
7: Pack my clothes.
8: Cousins and I planned to get some info first for our penang trip.
9: ......................................... will see how it goes.

Feeling sick

Sneezing, shivering... Am feeling sick. Arghhh...please recover soon because I'm hitting the Penang Island and I'm gonna to eat till the max and enjoy the life at the island there. Yes, HC love Penang gao gao. She even hoped that she can own a piece of land near the beach. But, I knew that there were too many new high rise building around the island, that's quite disappointing to me. No offence. Why its disappointing to me, simply because I just love the quiet-island-but-like-a-city. Recently, with the development there, too many high rise building like the condos were built and it destroyed the nature of the island. Somehow, I still loved Penang very very much. Hahaha....

Cousins and I have been browsing thru the websites to get some ideas where to visit. And of course not to forget, the most waited one, the Peranankan mansion heritage!!! Yayaya, after visiting the one in Melaka, I personally fell in love with the Baba and Nyonya culture very much, hence, the Peranakan mansion musuem is a must visit for me. And also not to forget the much waited new Guan Yin statue at Kek Lok Si Temple. I remember when I visited Penang when I was Form 3, they were just in the process to build that statue and finally, this year, it is ready. Mummy, sister, cousins also raised their hands to say that ''MUST GO''!!. Many more places to go and I would definitely enjoy the days there till maximum. Hehehe....

By the way, God bless me to recover soon please, before I go Penang. I want to eat Rojak, apam balik, char keuy teow, End Of the World Seafood Village, sing k there, shopping and many many many more activities.

Results Released!

Results released!
All 4 subjects released!
The 2 that remained RO yesterday night finally appeared on our results statement.
Frankly, it was kinda disappointed. I expect something better than that, yet, the marks were just a little away from my expectation. Have been thinking for the whole day what/where has gone wrong? Did I put enough effort? Should I retake? Previously I did have the thought to retake if I really get something which is lower than Distinction and now I really got to decide.

I got Credit for both Corporate Finance and Taxation Law paper. I just need another 2 marks for me to reach Distinction for Corporate Finance paper. Arrww.... 2 marks away only. How if I've done the question (I didn't complete one question)? Perhaps I will get it. Haiz... Is always if if if and if..... Sien.....

While for the taxation law paper, I should say that, well, I shouldn't expect so much really as I don't really have confidence on it after completing the paper. I got only 63. Its my attitude that made me feel guilty now. My last minute attitude doing the tax law assignment. For the first time, I did very last minute work and I got only 23/30. Its kinda low to me. Should I retake then?

I'm feeling lost right now. Have no courage to tell daddy and mummy my results that sucks. Have no idea at all what can I do during the coming semester. But, one thing for sure, that's a good lesson for me where I must not lag and gotto work hard CONSISTENTLY like how I did in the previous semester. I got to admit that during this semester I was a bit lost and suddenly don't find my way at all.

Where is the motivated LHC? Where is the hardworking LHC?
Anyway, the 3 months break will be sufficient for me to find my way, my dream, and everything that belong to me. Its time to refresh what I have done for the past 11 months.

:(

Two more RO

Results released.... OMG! I've been trying to control myself not to be so nervous yet, my heart is pumping non-stop since this morning. It stopped a while then when I think of it again, it started pumping again, bee-bop-bee-bop....

Around 9.30pm I did receive call from some saying that only 1 results were released and other remained outstanding. Sigh, this make me even worry. Don't really get to feel the full excitement again. I got 2 papers results, one is for Accounting Information System (the one I've been putting very very much effort on it as I've no accounting background) and Risk Management Models. Both I got High Distinction. Whee..whee....The other 2 that remained outstanding made me feel so miserable. Wondering what is my results. It made me even worry more. Though I was excited when I saw the two results, but I just can't fully enjoy the excitement since the other two results were left unknown. Hopefully, it won't take too long to let them post the results up. Again, hopefully it will be alright as I've been worrying these two papers very much ever since after the exam. Hopefully, everything will be fine real soon. :)

worrying

Its exactly 1 week after my last paper. 3 more days to go then the results will be released. Worry worry worry... Gosh.. These days I'm trying very hard not to think about it but the scene of viewing the results keep on flash through. Gosssssshhhhhhhhhh.................... Praying hard~~~

I just had my brunch - one packet of korean mee. But I just realised that the packet of mee is expired. OMG!!!!

Will be going to the Zara warehouse sales later. Hopefully it won't disappoint me this time. :)

DONE and Outings On

Finally, am done with my finals. It was a bad day to me today. I only realised that I forgot to bring my file along me when I reach college. Luckily sister was at home and speed to college and pass me the file. Though I entered 10 minutes later. Its still bad because I got so nervous and couldn't catch a breathe when I sat down. And I only realized that I calculated the wrong standard deviation in the exam but I only managed to amend some part of it. Hopefully, it will be alright.
Headed to Damansara palace for dim sum after exam with py and may and off to e@Curve, Ikano and Ikea to wander around. And I had lecka-lecka today. :D When I reached home, its already 7pm+. Finally I have time for you--my lappie...

Exam off....worrying the results already. Sigh sigh sigh....

Melacca trip on tomorrow. Again, some people ffk. Hate people last minute pull out without giving further notice at all.. Sigh.. Forget about it.
I am hoping that tomorrow comes faster.

Time to bed. Ciaoz.

Emo

Yes. Am being little emo nowadays.
Again, I have no reason or even an answer for myself. The weather nowadays is cold and nice enough to let me think of you again.
Ya, its you again. Am I missing you? I let you go once and I thought I will never miss you anymore. But, the weather, again, its cold and it remind me of you for many many times. How I wish you would carry an umbrella for me. How I wish we could share that umbrella though its just a small one. But, what makes us distant? Is it me or you? Or it is the distance between us? Simply because we stay far apart?
Shit!!!!! I shouldn't even miss you.........

What to say

Don't know what to say..

Its the 3rd paper today, hence 3 down, 1 on...

And, I think today's paper should be alright. AIS, I loved you soo soo much... So do love me too... Hahaha..

Next paper will me risk management models. I always take this paper seriously, in fact all seriously though, because its about financial risk management after all. The only reason I enter VU - Financial Risk Management & Banking and Finance.

Anyway, not going to talk much now.

Am really tired. Wanted to sneak out but I can't. Wanted to have a long rest like maybe 2 days or maybe even little for 1 day? No, no nope. HC won't do that.
National Library, here I am again and hopefully tomorrow the shooting won't be there anymore as I can't even concentrate on my book but rather looking at the camera and actress. ''Roll camera.... come on everyone.... Action... Cut Cut Cut.. Aiyo.. Again again again... Action'' Wth!

Library is not a place for you to do the shooting okay. Go go go away, come another day, Monday preferably since the library is closed on Monday. :)

Had nightnares before my finals and day before yesterday. It was a nighmare, real nightmare that I'm praying hard that it will definitely not be true in reality. Must not!!! Arrrmmmmhhhh....

Wonder what I have been doing for the past one year. Soon, 2 semesters end and I'll be officially going into the 2nd semester of Year 2 and soon I'll be entering Year 3 and sooonnnn....Err....Don't think too much.....

Still, I don't dive up, I am working towards my dream.

Subjects coming up after this will be even tougher, hence it is not a time to lag anyhow. I'm not going to break any record again when classes are on or when I'm in the semester and will play gao gao went I'm ''out-of-the-semester'' / ''on-holiday''. Sigh... Just don't know what to say at this time.

Kinda pointless.. Worrying my results..... What to do.. What can I say.... :(

Depressed!

Feels depressed! Feels so so bad! Feel like crying!
The feelings of after finishing the FIM exam is back. It happened again after finishing my Corporate Finance paper. I just don't know why. I have confidence before entering the hall, but it turned out another way after the exam. What the!!!!! I came home after lunch with daddy and thought of taking a short nap, but I can't even sleep. I've been thinking of the paper, the figures, the formulae.... Argh.............

I hate these feelings!!!! What has been going wrong. LHC, what happen to you.
Oh no no.....you got to leave that behind now as you have 3 more tough papers to go. You chose to do double major, so be it, work for it!!! Die die also must do it.

GOOOOO GOOOO GOOOO...................
NEVER GIVE UP!

Finals!!!

Ya, its the end of the semester 3 of my degree program.

Currently busying, very busy preparing my 40 pages taxation law & practice notes to be brought into the exam hall.....Its a lot. Somehow, its not the time to take any short cut or say give up because that's ain't me. To me, nothing is impossible. I'll make it.

Have been quite busy with my friend's assignment for the last week too. As though I'm doing their assignment. Aiz... For this, I'll keep it for the update after my finals because I've a lot to say, from my mind. I really see many things that make me become even more cautious. What's that?? Not going to mention anything here as it will definitely affect my mood now. Shoo shoo...

Its not the time to say goodbye but again, hello, LHC is still on her way to achieve her dreams, she will be fighting till the end. She will never give up. She will make it up to herself. She will make her parent be proud of her. She can do it. Pray for me!!!! HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!

Terrible

I would say this semester I did terribly though I have not sat for the final papers. I said so because I failed to manage my time better and in the end the assignments pilled up and I got to stayed up till the next day morning to complete the work and of course the work wasn't a good piece one from me, definitely!!

For this semester, I break my record.
1.
For the first time I did not sleep for two days and only managed to get a short nap for about 45 minutes only. I have not really read through my assignments N times before I handed in the final copy which I used to do previously.

2.
I went out before the test which is my damn first time doing so. In fact, I never step out the house door where there is a test going on the next day.

3.
I went Sg Lembing. Its okay at first but it crashed with my test shedule. And I didn't really do well in it. I got 15/20 which was quite disappointing.

4.
I did last minute work for myy taxation law assignment which was very NOT MY STYLE!!!! Gosh!!!!

5.
For the first time I am visiting the lecturer and tutor so often for my accounting subject. I can only rely on her indeed because, again, I have no accounting background. I know nothing.

6.
For the first semester that I seldom finish my tutorial works for CF. Others so far okay. Sweat~~~ Never do this, as this will only burden you when you do revision!!! Remember that LHC!!!

7.
My schedule was quite a mess after the Hari Raya break. What's going on LHC!!! wtf!!! THAT'S NOT YOU!!!

I have 2 more weeks to go before finals and got to start to prepare my taxation law notes. Buck up my AIS, CF and RMM.
I'll never give up and will stay till the end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Mooncake Festival 2009

To Ah Ma and Ah Gong, may your enjoy a wonderful festival, where ever you are. I miss your seriously.

It is Friday. No class today hence I planned to finish up my Accounting practice set assignment and the essay as well. But, I've spent my sweet time to chat with daddy and brother. I was wondering when was the last time we sat back together and chat so long. Brother and Mummy attended the neighbour's dinner while Daddy and I didn't attach along. We went out for dinner and reached home around 10pm and brother and mother also reach home not long after that. Then brother started to talk about the neighbour's thingy. I add on, followed by daddy, then brother again, non-stop till just now. We had 2 hours conversation, gossiping and talking about the old days about our uncles. Of course, we mentioned about my dearest granny and grandpa. Its the Mooncake festival tomorrow, I wonder where are there? I wonder whether they have had any mooncake? I really miss them a lot. We mentioned what grandpa dreamt of granny not long after granny passed away.. And many many more.... It always remind me of them whenever we celebrate any festival. It reminds me to appreciate what I'm having now. But sometimes we tend to forget this or even neglected the importance of appreciation in our life. No one will blame you for forgetting that, but somehow in future days, ourselves will remind us about that and soon we started to blame ourselves for not doing this or that at that very moment. Like what people always say, ''IF I WOULD HAVE KNEW THAT...'' IF I KNOW...'' Ya...its always IF IF IF and IF...think once, how if you are not given the chance to apologise or even say sorry again one day!!! Therefore, do what you think is right, but THINK TWICE or even TRIPLE!!! Live life with no regrets!!! I knew that it sounds easy to say them out but it takes a real hard way to practice them in life.

Well...should end here. HC's theory time should end here because she has 4 more assignments to go and 3 due next week!!! Gosh... And I realised that my tears are.................................................. Shhh.....how I wish ah ma and ah gong are here with me.....Seriously!!!! But sadly I can't even apologise and even say sorry to them at all, apologise for not being a filial granddaughter!!! I LOVE YOUR!!! ♥♥

WHERE ARE YOU?

I lost my lovely metal ruler.. Arghh....

I've been using that ruler since I was in Standard 3.

Imagine how long this metal ruler has been with me, through the ups and downs, through all the tests and examinations, its always with me when I am doing my home works.

I pathetically need my lovely metal ruler back.

Though I have another one with me and it was somehow younger than the one I lose, but the lovely ruler was the one who always accompanied me.

I don't want a new one!!!

I just want my metal ruler back now!!!

One test and the finals are coming, how can I leave without it!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!

It's not me!!!

I have a long break and of course its a good time for me to do my assignments. Somehow, I lagged and took my sweet time and rested & slept for almost 2 days continuously. Being not productivity for two days, without the concern that the assignments and tests are due very soon. Gosh..... I think it was mainly due to the accident I met which gave me a lot of problem to settle this and that, moreover auntie passed away last weekend!

Last Saturday, I spent my whole day in and out, went to temple to bai bai, went lunch with daddy and brothers, went shopping after lunch, sent my car to the workshop.

Sunday: Woke up very late as I didn't have good rest since Friday night. Went dinner with uncle with his new 4 wheel car!!! Reached home at 10pm.

Monday: Slept till 4pm and enjoyed the Nyonya cuisine as dinner with family members at SS2. Finally, I tried that!!! And I'll definitely visit the restaurant again. Rushed back home and went and fetched two cousins, off we went to attend Auntie's praying ceremony. Sob~~~Sob~~~

Tuesday: Finally started with my assignment. Suddenly have no idea what I've done yesterday. OMG!!!

Wednesday (Today): Went to Uni and did the assignment things again with friends. Reached home at 8pm and am still now with my lappie with the assignment files on........

GOT TO BUCK UP!!! Tonnes of assignments are piling up!!!

Exhausted!!!

UPDATED!

Block teaching held on Saturday finished at 3.30pm. I stayed back to wait for Elaine till her class finished at 4.30pm, off we went to 7-11 and had cup mee as our meal. Poor us, we have money to go concert but not for a brunch?! Haha...

Attended the T music festival concert I having been waiting for...All because you're there, that's why I'll be there. :P David Tao, your live is still the same-superb!!! The concert was a blast, it started sharp at 7pm and continued non-stop till 1.50am. Its my first time attending a concert till so late and the singers and audiences were still very ''on'' that night/morning.

Reached home at 2.05am and bathed, wandering around at the living room and read the newspaper. Till I'm done, and when my hair is dried its almost 3a.m. Woo, I felt asleep the moment I lyed on the bed. Woke up at 8.00am this morning to attend the block teaching again. Go0sh, for the first time I fall asleep in the lecture hall man. Its disappointing!!!! The moment I reached home this evening was to sleep!!! I'm really exhausted now. Yawn....its time to bed~~~~~

Luckily + Go ahead

Met my lecturer this morning (purposely wake up early today to go college and see her, am on semester break now ) and get my doubts cleared and eventually, I asked her about the DR and DT thing which I was wondering whether I should ask or not, worrying that she will take note on my paper. Anyhow, I asked and get the answer. She said she is not that particular and will no penalize me, perhaps she understand my situation where I've no accounting background at all and I'm starting from ZERO!!!

I reminded myself many times and from now on practice to write DR instead of DT.

Previously, to be frank I've the sudden thought of giving up the subject or to drop it. I want to emphasis that even FIM which is damn tough to everyone, I took the subject and did not think of surrender at all but how come I have that bad thought of giving up. But, few days later, I decided that, I chose my path - to major in Financial risk management and banking and finance. Hence, I should never ever have the thought of giving up. The accounting subject comes in the double major package, I have no choice in short. I got to take it. And now, I'm telling myself that NEVER GIVE UP!!!

I always remind myself about the doomsday's I had when I was taking the FIM subject, the assignment itself was enough to kill you, mentally or maybe physically. Since I did well in FIM, why not in AIS. Since I have no accounting background, why I scored Distinction for last semester's Accounting for Decision Making. So, I have no reason to give up this time. And, I strongly believed that, nothing can stop you to go further, if you insist to do it, if you really wanted to, and if you believe that nothing is impossible (even the Frenchman climbed KLCC successfully).

Go ahead, there is nothing to be fear of anymore. VLHC can do it!!!

Its too LATE

Its too late.

I just came to know that Daddy knows accounting. I was on my study table doing the accounting exercises and he came up and pass me the strawberry (he used to send us fruits after every dinner). I was concentrating on the calculation and I noticed that he was standing behind me for quite some time. At first, I did not bother and till I calculated the figures, I turned and looked at him. He said: debit credit. What is that ''DT''. And I replied: ''DT'' is debit lo...because I've no accounting background at all that why I used Dt as a short form of Debit. He then continued and said that; Ching, you must change la, there is no such thing called Dt in accounting only ''DR'' that represents Debit. Then I told him I don't know accounting at all so to make my life easier I used ''DT''. And, he warned me again that I shouldn't used ''DT'' but should start practicing using Dr else marks might be deducted. And I was like, Wtf.... I just realised that, I used DT in the at risk test. But how come all the while no one tell me only can use Dr. Why whenever I'm showing my friends my work, they don't inform me or correct my mistake.

Why!!!! Why!!!! Its too late. I am super worried about the at risk test now and am thinking whether should I see the lecturer and tell her this and hopefully she could just close an eye. Really damn shit!!! Wtf!!!

By the way, I just knew that Daddy had little accounting background. He took the accounting course and draftsman course 30 years ago, but he got to stopped without graduating because he got to work. And he made me realised one thing that, I or we should thank our parent for being so kind to let us choose our course and university that we intend to go. They work so hard to pay for our fees and our pocket money of course. So as a student or a children to your parent, Study hard is the only way to reward your parent. They don't get anything from what you learnt, instead, they'll be proud of you if you have been doing good in your studies.

So, I got two lessons tonight:
1. Write DR instead of DT, luckily its not final (feel like crying already when I think of this, my 5marks gone!!!!!! I know 5 marks to some out there is like peanuts but to me even its o.5 marks, it is very important!!!)
2. Study hard, don't waste the hard-earned money of your parent, let them be proud of you

Sunrise

The trip to Sg. Lembing was exhausted yet fun! You need lots of energy to keep on climbing till the top. Its not easy and that's for true. Not long after we started to climb, we saw people standing aside and some decided to return as the surrendered!!! Besides, some of us have hard times when we were climbing the stairs. However, all of us make it!!!

My feelings after seeing the sunrise was: appreciate the seconds, the days and the minutes of your life. The sunrises everyday and it sets after it too, when you see the sunrise, think what have you done yesterday or previously. When you see the sunset, think what have you done today. And there it goes the saying of 'time don't wait for you' and that is why people always says ''time flies''. No matter how hard life is, each of us have our ways to make life easier if we really want to, life still have to go on. The time don't stop because of you. The sun will still set in the evening, and it'll rise again the next day. So, enjoy your life, things that happen in our life, appreciate them though it may brings you sadness or happiness, because THAT'S LIFE. Things don't always come within our expectation or as at planned, if it is, we don't learn to appreciate, we don't learn, neither we could grow up.

LIVE LIFE TO THE MAXIMUM/FULLEST, never regret for what you have done or what you have not done. Choose the way/road which you intend to go for no matter it will be full of challenge or whatsoever, life is either take it or you leave it!!!!

Sg Lembing here I come

And finally, the lembing trip is confirmed ON this friday. Woo hoo...~~~~

Shoo shoo shoo away the annoyance... I'm not going to get angry of that anymore. Fine!! Forget about it.

I'll just take this trip to relax myself because I AM SO STRESS FOR THE ACCOUNT SUBJECT!!! Its killing me indeed. Seriously I feel like crying today during the lecture because I don't really know what's all that about..... Really shit.... However, I've put on a rough plan for myself for the coming mid semester break and hopefully it works. Hehehe....

I want my day back!!!

Don't know. I just don't feel like talking nowadays. Almost in an ugly face everyday when I go college and am always in the bad mood too. I've too many things to think about and to be completed. Go go go away the moody mind, I want my day back!!!

Look forward...CHEERS!!!!.

Quotes of the Day

''The illiterate of the 21st century will not be those who cannot read and write, but those who cannot learn, unlearn, and relearn.'' -Alvin Toffler-

''There is nothing so useless as doing efficiently that which should not be done at all.' -Peter F. Drucker-

''Always bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than any other one thing.'' -Abraham Lincoln-

TheLittle Nyonya: 保温

The Little Nyonya: 需要

如果把你的眼神默背好
就可以無視寂寞的懸崖
我想，我不會像現在這么糟
如果把走過的路都記牢
就可以面對短限的依靠
至少,不但不涌入次的驕傲
不知熱于的微笑
增加等腦海地失掉
抓不緊，也放不掉
未來的夢和街角是否轉身就找得到
愛是一種需要，卻不一定要得到
只要你覺得快樂就好
夢會溫熱眼角，讓回憶像水草般纏繞
卻總能讓人勇敢不笑
愛是一種需要，聚散卻沒辦法預料
只能在心里做個記號
只到那天遇到，還會是同樣的味道
下雨也好驅風也好
相信這就能不會難熬

The Little Nyonya

I'm sure everyone, the astro users especially are addicted to the little nyonya drama these days. But, I'm darn superb in to it. I can't wait any longer and borrowed the DVD from my friend and I finished it within two days. And the best part was that, my family members for the first time accompanied me to catch the drama till the end, till late night. Even daddy who sleeps early stayed till late also. Its really a nice nice nice drama. This was the Singapore drama I liked the most. Before this was ''tong xin yuan''. Ahaha, but now, its The Little Nyonya.

When Charl told me the shooting place was at Penang, I just can't wait any longer to online to search for the place. I found it. I found it. It was in Penang. I still remember well that I passed by that house 2 years back when I was there with my friends. Oh god, I can't wait to go there again to visit the house. That time I didn't realise that it was the Baba & Nyonya's house as it was closed I remember. Now, I've decided to visit there again one day later after my finals. And Melacca as well. I'm addicted to the Peranakan's culture. Arghh.....loved little nyonya. Nice nice nice drama. Thumbs up!!!!

I was supposed to online to do some research for my tax law for the test tomorrow. But I ended up wasting 3 hours to search for The Little Nyonya misc things. By the way, I accidentally found that this drama has 2 ending which I did not get to see it from the DVD. Anyhow, I have found them from youtube. I remember that I wasn't that crazy with ''tong xin yuan'' few years back also, but how come on The Little Nyonya. Thanks to little nyonya anyway, I don't hate you at all, ahahah....I loved you till the max. Its not only the normal dramas we used to watch from tv but more than the normal drama. I love the plot, the climax. I also read the comments from people who dislike the ending. Hmm, I'd say I hope that Chen Xi and Yue Niang will be together too, but, somehow, its a good ending. Let the unexplained things left miserable. Let it be in your mind, how you imagine on it. Oh god, you see, whenever talking about little nyonya drama I just can't stop myself to talk more about it. How I wish to wear on the nyonya suit. How I wish I am born the that century. Oh god...HC loves traditional things. Though time flies and things changed from time to time, still deep in my heart I am curious how the old one lives last time. How I wish to understand it more. In fact, I hope there isn't any globalisation. And time could stop at the old days where people respect each other....etc.. I shall stop here else I can just write all about the nyonya things for more than 1 page, Hahah. I'll continue with it later, if not I may not get to study for my law test tomorrow.

status in mind

''Its not easy to forget and forgive''

S t U d Y

Studdddd---y. Am still in the holiday mood and have not really clear my desk for the new semester. I have only did some packing on the lecture notes and tutorials stuffs because I need the files to feed in my new notes and tutorials.

Its the end of week 2. No more sleeping like a pig. No more shopping - which I've done very much previously. No more No more.... HuuuuuHuuuu....

I don't really get to finish all my tutorials for this week as I was darn lazy. Though classess usually starts later, I always ended up sleeping again and again till 30 mins before I need to depart from home to college, even if I wake up early at 7.30am.

Will be starting the first block teaching this weekend and really hope that I can catch up with it as I have totally no idea with the ledger and journal things. Credit debit credit debit credit or debit....Hopefully I'll be able to handle it like how I did it for the previous accounting subject where I'm able to do an income statement and balance sheet, in which I know nothing from the beginning. Nyek nyek nyek.

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Not having class tomorrow and have planned to get dear Charl to accompany me to the saloon to trim my hair.

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21 August 2009, have planned a trip to Sg. lembing with friends and really hope it success. I've been wanting to see the sunrise for so long. Can't wait~~~

Life is Great

Life is great. Look forward and you'll see wonderful things in your life. Think positive. Smile sincerely. Laugh loudly. Work hardly. Do properly. Everything can be so fine.

I enjoy my life, and so do you?

Yesterday night, finally got to meet up with the dear Henny for shopping. Oh. it has been so long that we didn't go for crazy shopping. I've did lots of shopping before and after the mega sales but yesterday was her first shopping since mega sales started. I only managed to get one pair of shoes. Ye..its shoes again and that's the 7th pair of shoes I bought in one month time. Whenever I go shopping, I'd definitely manage to get at least a pair of shoes. Henny bought 3 pairs of shoes and some tops for her and her dear. Aww...... How I wish to buy for my dear too..... :)

Off, we had our dinner at Pasta Zanmai. It was my first time there and before that mt did recommend me as their pasta were delicious. And, I would really give thumbs up to it. Worth trying.

The 7th pair of shoe is not in

Dinner at Pasta Zanmai

I bought a bag that day from NafNaf and at first I thought of buying it for dear Charl as a present but ended up I made them for myself. Hence, I got to buy other thing for dear Charl alr and I owed her a birthday dinner. Super happy 21st birthday dear CharL.

Attended my ex tuition teacher's wedding dinner at Jaya Palace Restaurant at PJ. She really looks so pretty that night. And it made me recalled of my guilty deeds. I made her cried last time and I wonder whether she still remember that incident or not. I sincerely hoping that she could forget and forgive for myself being childish and naughty at that time. And now the Ching Ching has grown up, she is no longer the naughty Ching :p



Currently, at Parkroyal waiting for my dear mummy then off to Istana to meet brother. I feel so so sleepy now.

Ice Blended Ultimate Mocha. Thumbs up!!!

INSANE person

Really damn her. I never ever want to say that at all. Its over and I really don't wanna blame on anyone. You get what you want and the marks were totally good enough to let you scored a D... What a nice D. And you never even thank us. Ended up scolding me 'bitch'. If I would have be the bitch, you can't imagine what will happen now. You got to bear it!!! We were really darn kind enough as we didn't complain anything to ms and even back stabbed you, except making complaints and grumbles to either party or our close friends who are not involved. You turned out to be so crazy and went up posting the silly things on your personal message. It happened few times before and I take it and leave it as if it never happened before. Aren't we kind-hearted enough? Kind enough to forgive you and just forget about it. Oh gosh.. You spoilt my day and that's pretty out of my expectations that you go INSANE now!!!! Yes, YOU ARE!!!!
We believed that if we are going to reveal the truth to everyone, people will stand by us as these people have known you much better than us before we were informed 'who you are'!!!!.......

That's ridiculous...I got really pissed off. Anyway, as usual, this time, I will just take it and after some grumbles, I leave it. Its not going to affect my mood either as I don't think that its our fault!!! We have done more than what was necessary. Very much more......

semester 2/2009

Yayaya.. and I'm finally in the Year 2 of my degree program now. I could shout and say that I've completed my Year 1 subjects, proudly presenting my results to anyone. To daddy and mummy, to ah ma and ah gong....to anyone, anyone out there.

And of course starting from this semester, the subjects will be much more tougher.

Recently, I have an idea of organizing a birthday party for myself, my 21st birthday celebration. Its just an idea which popped up lately due to my birthday dream was not fulfilled. The party will be held at the beach and my theme will be related to the beach, where guess are allowed to wear beachwear or only blue colours top and bottom - to match with the colour of the sea. Or maybe they can only wear green colour top and bottom - because its 'ching' which sounds like 'green' in mandarin.
My theme will be HC's forever 21st birthday beach party. Sounds cool right.
But of course if I really wanna do this it involve some networking and it definitely cost a big big bucks.

Shitt....that's all my plan..... my dream....... Arghh.........

Only for BH & LY

To bh & ly,

Remember the time we had. I know it may not be a super great celebration to both of you, but I planned that, sincerely, hoping that you guys will have a wonderful 21st. Though its ''in advance'' but your know why lar...

Bh, I like the time when you almost cried and telling that this was the first time us celebrating your birthday and you really happy with that.

Ly, I like hearing the thanks from you too.

I'm really happy with that my dears... I really do... My efforts were worth paying off. By the way, I needed 2 days to recover my energy. Woosh....now you know how tiring it was doing the cupcakes, baking it, making the birthday card till 4am and woke up at 6am to prepare the stuffs. Anyway, I'm willing to do it and so shall I expect my beach party from you guys huh.... Hahaha..I'm dreaming again....its time to go to bed, I'm darn tired.

The shopping time....watermelon for may's cocktail....

WooHoooOoo.....

Forgotten to bring along recycle bad ...ish....

HC's self-designed cupcakes recipe

at first, when i was mixing the ingredients i really thought the cupcakes will not be so nice as i spent a longer time to mix them all together as i used a lot of ingredients to bake 42 cupcakes...but it came out to be beyond my expectations....it was really delicious compared to the first 2 times when i first tried to bake cupcakes...

choc flavour

butter flavour

A card from HC and all to 'him'

And when this 2 orang meet....gaduh for cooking methods... no eye see...

The hand in this pic was mr. saw. He destroyed my art....I shouldn't have let him do the icing...

Everyone gave thumbs up... ;) really delicious....hmmm

the 2 slices of tomato for mein's so-called decoration...:P

it suddenly remind me about the ''cream promise'' pics... gonna chase them for the pics soon...

with the colourful candles... another piece of art though...

HC's with her handmade card

showing off her creativity..

Once again....Happy 21st birthday. Selamat hari jadi 21. Zhu ni sheng ri kuai le.