Still....

I'm still on medication. Ya, it has been 2 weeks since I'm on medication. Its really torturing. I have to bear with the food attraction all the time. Though its a good time for me to diet but I need FOOD, I'm under pressure now!

Okay, at first, I was on Chinese herbal medication, I felt better but then my throat was swollen. Mummy wanted me to see the family doctor where her medicine is really strong and will definitely cure but the day I went to the clinic, my doctor was not there and I have no choice but seek for another on duty doctor consultation. Then, my fever subside, but I still have severe cough and flu. I don't wanna take the western medicine anymore, hence, I went to another Chinese doctor whom I have been seeing since I was a baby. And, guess what, he retired already and his son took over the job. My throat is feeling better now, and I've to return 2 days later for continuous consultation. I think I should fork out some time for exercise. My body is really weak.

Loads of assignments and tests to be done till the study week. I have FIM research with me, where I need to fork out 6000 words for that piece of work. Gosh~~~ I'm trying to read more articles nowadays to strengthen my vocab and hope that it will help when I'm writing my research essay later. And, I still prefer individual assignment. Group assignment does not help me to ease my pressure, instead, it is giving me more pressure than I would have had. Maybe that's my problem since I couldn't communicate well with my members. Ish!!!

Happy 5th birthday to my beloved cousin - Cheng Yew. We had a mini celebration with him today at auntie's house and I got to try her home cook. Its not that bad eating home cook after all. Catering food really bored us!!! :) (I'm 21, gosh, what was I doing when I'm 5?)

I'm sick!

I've been so well and till yesterday I started to feel bad. I could feel that my throat is drying up and I need lots of water. But it seems that even 3litre of water a day is not enough for me. Aiks, I wanna get rid of this as soon as possible. I never want to be sick when I'm attending classes as it really torture me a lot.

My desk was kinda messy now. I have a big tumbler with me which is 1.5L large and 2 cups of drinks. One is from mummy, some salty thing which could help to ease the sore throat. Another one just touch down, from daddy, a type of herbs which could help to cure flu. Too many drinks and I need to go toilet now, again!

This afternoon, I went to mummy's office to meet her up before heading for my dentist appointment. As usual I'll just walk in to her office and straight to her desk. Today, I stepped in and this Sweden guy (i know he is the manager, a new manager. PS: mummy's office always change manager one!) greet me and ask who am I looking for. When I told him that :I'm looking for my mother. I said this twice. Because he can't hear me neither I can make myself clear because my voice was pathetically sounds like a MAN! That's horrible! Okay, he thought I intend to see ''Margaret'' which also sounds like ''Mother''. Anyway, my mother is Margaret. Woo...luckily. Else I got to start the ''chicken and duck conversation''. The manager was pretty handsome. But he never wants to tell his age. Mummy guess he was about 20-30 years old. But I guess he's definitely below 25years old. He looks pretty young and the most handsome one among all the managers that I've seen. I used to go mummy office so I know the managers a little. Sigh la, if I didn't have sore throat, definitely I will chat more with him. Hahaha.... And I'll get his facebook or msn then. Wakakaka....

Okay. Back then. I'm supposing doing my marketing report now. I come to blog because I have no idea to write anything. I need some ideas. The title is: ''Customer service in finance sector - will it win customers''. And at the same time I got to check Mt 's report. Ya, I'm a English teacher. Hehe... I think I need to read more and more and more. I wanna master English. And its for my own good since I'm going Aussie later.

Finally, I get to dream of grandpa and grandma yesterday. I dreamt that grandpa was having a high fever and I saw a few packs of Chicken rice beside him where I couldn't really recognize the address. If I'm not mistaken, I think I saw something like Seremban and Jalan Raja Laut. But this two location is not linked at all. Additionally, I saw grandma too but I never get to talk to her more. How grandpa looks in my dream was exactly like how he looked like when he passed away. Sob sob~~~ Ah gong and ah ma, ah ching really miss you all. Come to my dream and I have many things to tell and share with your. Please come back to my dream. The dream god if it does exists, please allow my ah gong and ah ma to come to my dream. Please~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

lost

Well.. I'm lost. I have had all Australia Universities information that I want. And, till today I have not decide on anything neither I want to transfer or not. Transfer to Aus, yes, this is definitely what I dream for. But, what am I still wondering about? What makes me pullback to make a confirm decision? I'm just not being myself now. Lagging, wandering, dreaming, wasting time and leave a question mark behind me wherever I go. That's why I am lost. I lost my way. I lost my target. Where is the hardworking ching!!! Shit....Wth... I just hate myself now.

LHC, you gonna make a decision before your mid semester break ends. Else, you will forever be lost!

read through it and really understand them

爱一人

如果你不爱一个人,

请放手.

好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,

请放开自己,

好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .

但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,

有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.

女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,

我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,

我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,

我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，

你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，

你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，

你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!