I SWEAR

It is 3.26 a.m now.

Finally, I am done with the last assignment for this semester. Though its the last one, but I just feel upset that how come HC is doing last minute work. Ya, no one expect that HC will do last minute work. All because of the previous assignment - FIM!!! After handling the FIM assignment on last Thursday, and you never how exhausted am I. I just fell to sleep after lunch when I reached home and slept till 7pm + that day. And I wen to bed that day at 12am as well. Friday, I thought of doing the assignment but ended up sleeping again, BECAUSE I REALLY NEED MORE REST!!! I forced myself to look on my assignments, but my eyes just couldn't stand any longer. That's why I am now here. If not, you can find me in your dreams.

Argh......................

I SWEAR THAT I'LL NEVER REPEAT THIS ANYMORE!!!

That's not HC!!! By the way, FIM assignment was really the toughest assignment I experienced!!!
I used to complete my assignment few days before the due date but now.......................... Got really upset especially when May was surprised that she saw me online because I was still doing my assignment. Her reply ''how come...?'' really made me feel guilty. This assignment is not a good piece of work either. WTF!!!!

Vanessa Lau Hui Ching, never ever do that again!

RELEAS-ED

YES... I'm released. Though I have one more assignment to go, but no worries as I have drafted the essay pretty much earlier and I shall complete it within this 2 days. So that I can attend the relative reunion dinner on this coming Saturday.

The FIM assignment was really the most difficult assignment (so far) I would say. I have never had such experience. You know, over the weekends or even started from last 2 weeks, I stayed up till 3 - 4am or even 5am to do the assignment. And of course I didn't sleep well even if I get to sleep for 2 hours before I wake up to go campus. I tried to not to go to bed so late as I know my body can never stand that, and I'd definitely fall sick again. And, I had fever, flu, then cough (sounds like swine flu symptoms). Then, recover, then now I feel cold. Having a little running nose. Sigh sigh sigh, all because of this assignment!!!!! I personally don't really like sitting in front of the computer for a long duration, what more I got to sit in front of my laptop from day till the next morning.
Yesterday I even spent 6 hours at Starbucks, trying to complete the assignment. Why Starbucks? I have no choice since LiSun and mine laptop couldn't connect to the campus wifi. And we need the access all the time when we are doing the assignment. So I suggested to go Pyramid Starbucks, and of course we get to discuss those assignment stuffs immediately rather than waiting from the reply thru calls or sms or messenger. And you know its better to talk face-to-face rather than calls or sms. Sometimes you just don't get to convey the 'proper meaning' of you message to the other party thru calls or sms. Though messenger is the cheapest way, but still I think messenger only helps you to reach your friend easily when she is connected on the other end. But the problem is still the same, sometimes when words are typed and sent over there, it might turned out to be translated to other thing. The probability of high accuracy of reaching the correct message convey is very low indeed. Maybe what you want to tell can be translated that ''you are in anger'' on the other end. Hence you need those icons to make it more specific.

Anyhow, I am done with the FIM assignment. And I can totally feel the difference between before and after completing the assignment. Before: You are stressed out, you feel that your brain is heavy, and couldn't function well too. After: You don't get to concentrate in class because you are lack of rest. Your brain don't even function. All you want is to sleep! But the main thing is that you feel the relief, truly.

I'm not going to face the computer too much already, the 3 weeks doomsday had made my skin dried up and dull. I need a massage now!!!

Back to tutorials....

Now I know why....

Now I understand what they meant. Now I know that why she has been moving from one group to another. Now I know how's the feelings when being ill-threatened. Now I swear that I will never grouping with her. She made me screwed up.

I personally will admit that to certain extent it is my fault for not communicating well with her. And I do admit that it is my fault for telling her last minute that we wanna complete the task this weekend. It is my fault that I did not make myself clear about our tasks. My faults.... Girls now I know what your meant and I really experienced it!!! But its too late. Nonetheless, I will never expect anything on her and we shall complete the task on our own.

I love working in group but not in assignments!!!

Back to assignments

Frustration

I got frustrated with the way she did her work. She is giving me shit!!! I'm not being bad k. Since its a group assignment, each of us play our own responsibility and try to cooperate with each other. You got to go and get the books your own and do your research for your particular section. But ended up asking me what's the definition, what does that mean, and even asking me ''DID YOU BORROW ANY BOOK? CAN BORROW ME''!!! Wtf!!!! Sounds harsh right. Yes, I really got pissed off with her till I wanna scold the four letter words to her. She even asked me to help her photocopy then bring it to her since I wanna use it. Wth!!!

I borrowed her the book and she said she will photocopy and return to me. In the end, I need to let her bring back home the book again and again till I surrender and said ''you take the book la, I don't want to wait anymore, I want the introduction soon.''. Yes, I totally surrender. I have no choice but to compromise. Ya, I should use the word ''compromise'' because again, its a group work. And, when today I was doing the assignment I feel that I need the book, she replied me I return to you on Monday then. Hey, come on!!! The assignment will due on Thursday k!!! Don't tell me you want me to do last minute work and you should know that the Turnitin is pretty sensitive. I need to hand in our work as soon as possible.

You know how pissed off am I. You know how I wished that I never have a group member like her. Really got very pissed off the way she did her work. She told me she is busy so she can't find info about the monetary policy, so she would just write what she had. Hey, miss, don't say you don't have ample of time. If you don't have ample of time then how about us. At this moment or for this week we have the accounting assignment due and FYI you no need to do anything okay except cutting the articles from newspaper. Moreover, you don't even ask about the assignment except when you need to sign the declaration form of the assignment. Come on. You don't have time, then how about us!!!!

Frustrated + Disappointed = Pissed off

Back to assigment.....got to crack my head for the 6000 words assignment

Shopping

Ya ya ya. I said before I will definitely hit the shopping mall soon right. And, I headed to pyramid after the class finished this afternoon.

I have been trying to control myself to splurge on clothings or any accessories this time. So guess what I did? Shopping what. I shop for groceries lo. Its the first time alone shopping for groceries. Fun tough. I can conclude that the satisfaction level when you see what you bought comparing for ''normal girls shopping (clothings etc) is totally different. Anyhow, each has its different feelings after the shopping. Shopping for groceries is totally different from shopping for clothings. When you shop or I shop for groceries I will just see what I want and take it and throw them into the trolley and if there are few types of packaging it will involve some mathematic calculations which is quite fun though. Hahaha.. 

What I bought....

end up using too many plastics....

and I never thought that these things will end up to an amount of 160bucks, which was totally out of my expectation. I thought maybe it should be around 100 bucks. And there was a little incident when I made my payment. I paid by credit card but it took long time for it to process. Really long time till you feel like taking out another card to try but unfortunately I didn't bring along any extra cards as I have took them out from my purse, thinking that I shouldn't bring so many cards with me just in case I am robbed. Choi!!! Plus the safety out there is really terrible. I started to worry and think that ''this time cham liao, I only have 2 dollars cash with me, how am I going to pay this amount''. And, I have taken my ATM cards out from my purse since I don't use it also. Luckily the cashier was patience enough and willing to try and try and try again. Till its approved. Woosh......luckily lol as I was about to call LiSun to come and help me since they are the nearest to me. They are having lunch at Tony Romas. When I was about to call, it was approved. Really thank god!!! So it reminded me that I have to put extra cards in my purse just in case any emergency. 

I hate that

I hate that when I'm telling my friends things about me and they will just suddenly make you pissed off. Ya, when they said ''you are like that one de meh'', ''jia jia''. What the hell is that. As though that I'm being a faker.

Especially those who always said they know you well, indeed, they know nothing. I love nature. I prefer trees instead of development. If I am given a choice, I would prefer to go back to the old days where there is not much development and people are kind and considerate. And at least there isn't much liars out there. People do business in a genuine way. People smile and greet at you, not cursing at you all the time. People that are not selfish. Day by day, things changed, even thoughts in mind have to catch up with the latest trend. For say, if you can't accept lesbian you are just too ''out-dated''. If you can't accept pre-marital sex, you should go back to the 70s. Hey, come on. I'm just who I am. I can change my attitude, anything. But to an acceptable extent. But why must I change my thinking. That's mine thinking. No one should be the intruder of my thoughts, thinking, my own state of mind, neither I can be the intruder of your thinking.

If you are my friends, believe in what I said if you think that you know me well though. If I tell lies, you should know it. Don't just add on words that will hurt. If I'm being fake in front of you, meaning you are just noone to me!!!!

Headache

Having a bad headache now.

Trying to think of ways which is cheap and can release my pressure. But, shopping is the only best way for me. Hahaha.... Alright, its time to pamper myself. I'll hit one of the shopping malls soon and daddy please be prepared when the credit card statement arrives. :P

Stress... Stress... Stress....

As usual, attended the marketing tutorial and lecturer this morning and I really got a little pissed off with her. When she said she is going to return our report 1 during this week block teaching in front of VU lecturer, to show him our quality of work. Can you don't be so cruel? Oh god, meaning our work sucks right? I really worry, as my html referencing was totally wrong. I just copy and paste the html referencing for in-text reference. Hell. She will definitely deduct lots of my marks from it. Hopefully, Sir will be kind enough to me this weekend.  

Saturday date. Ya, I can't wait for our Saturday date. Our date for steamboat. Its our first date for steamboat. I can't wait that. All because I can't wait to eat the fishballs, prawn, crab, and everything. And not to forget that I can't wait for the ''cream promise''!!! *evil laughs*

Stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.............................................................................

HELP!!!

HELP me....!!! 

The FIM research essay is driving me crazy... And, now, I am almost half dead. My brain is full with all kinds of info but I have no idea what to write on it. How should I ''compare and contrast the financial institution of US and Australia'' - my current problem. The essay title is''Compare and contrast US and Australia's financial system''. OH GOSH.................. 

And, something suddenly popped up when I was reading the textbooks just now. Should I switch to marketing ar? At least there is no history related stuffs. Hahaha... Ya, finance has just too many history. How they evolved overtime la. Deregulation la... Reregulation la.... Yor..............................

Erhem...this is for the marketing report only and......

THIS IS THE FIM one!!!

My desk can never be neat and clean one day. All books are being stacked around me. Underneath the table, beside the table, on the chair, below the chair..........Woosh.............As though I'm that hardworking lolz.

HELP HELP HELP......I need to finish it by today!!!!!

Relax

Ya....relax. :) Time to relax but not too long because I'll have to back to my assignments later again. I wanna finish them as soon as possible. I really need more time to buck up my FIM. I just realized that my understanding on it is really not enough for me at all. Luckily, I managed to choose Australia as one of my research essay country, it helps a bit anyway.

Well well well, the days have been quite wonderful though I'm not attached now. Hahaha... Crazy ya! Meeting up with my friends for thier 21st birthday celebrationS. Busy with my assignments, tests and tutorials. Catching up with the Singapore drama as well and The Golden Path is the drama I'm currently into it! I do watch Six Children - a korean drama sometimes too. Frankly, I've get bored with the Hong Kong series. I know their acting skills very well and don't really see any changes on them from one drama to another. I do catch some HK dramas too, but it depends. Not all though. I know there are people who watch every HK drama. Its kinda boring to me la.

My schedule is really pack and how I wish that I can have more than 24 hours a day. Ya, you will always say this when you have insufficient time and when it seems like you are working against the clock. I think there won't be anyone who doesn't wish that there will be extra hours a day. At least you live in the earth longer! Haha... My wishlist for this moment: going for a spa, it really entice me especially I'm doing my marketing report now which is all about SPA! Sigh, how I wish to go for a spa now and indulge myself  and leave the assignments, tests, problems behind. I want to go for a shopping spree, splurge through all the malls in city and aiming at the penang malls after my finals, hehe. And hopefully that was when the sales was on. And you know when you've pressure you tend to eat more. Your appetite is totally different. Fried kuey teow, Damansara Palace's dim sum, Super Tanker's dishes, TGI Fridays, Marche, steamboat, NanXiang's siu long pao, sharkfin soup and many more. Slrrp, yummy yummy...

My online blogshop was setted up last month during my mid semester break but the response wasn't good. I guess our items were just too mature. Anyway, I will update the latest one soon after the photoshoot which I'll be doing it next week. And I will be the model, I need to start my diet plan. Arghh...but I want food!!! Thanks Charl who willing to spare me her time to be the cameragirl! I believe in your skill, haha....

And, I shall leave some space for the 2 VIPs below.

Date: 5th April, 2009

Venue: Manjalara steakhouse

Happening: The Princess Birthday

Date: 17th April, 2009

Venue: Kimgary @ the Curve

Happening: ChinLoong's belated birthday dinner

Don't think that you can avoid from the ''CREAM CAKE''... Haha... That's the spcial-of-the-day!

His 21st birthday girft. Use it till the max ya. There is a reason behind this. Write hard with it and enjoy your new college life soon!

Surprises were carried out throughout the celebration. At first, I was to pick him up and I forced him to change his casual wear to formal wear and emphasised that I'll bring him to have candlelight dinner where only me and him will attend. In fact we will be meeting up the others at the curve. He really believed that everyone was not free! First surprise was when we entered the restaturant, he saw all have been seated and looking at him. Eh, Goh Chin Loong we will never dump you alone on your birthday k!!! Cheers. We continued our lies that we just managed to have dinner last minute and no preparation was done. We apologised for no cake during his birthday. He believed also! He also believed that we never buy any present for him. When we were done with our meals and asked the waiter to clean up the table and pretend that we are leaving and planning for second round and the cake was carried out suddenly and we sang him the birthday song. And the plate of cream was carried out a while later after the candle blowing ceremony was done. We keep our ''cream promise'' lolz. And the present was given to him later as well. We went for second round at one of the cafe there. I've no idea what was the cafe name. And, the dj sang the birthday song to him. Songs were dedicated to him as well. He said that was the first time he have had so many surprises on his birthday as all the while his birthday celebration was really simple. 

Ya, I personally feel that I want my friends to have an unforgettable 21st birthday. I will continue to plan you guys birthday as well. And the next one coming up will be ShyhJia and EngHsiang one. I have had some ideas of the celebration. I assure that you guys will love me till the max. Muahahahaha.....

Back to my assignment.......US regulation.... Australia regulation..... RBA, The Fed...............yayayayay........