100GB memory

Planning, organising, leading, controlling... Hahaha... Ya, memorise memorise and memorise... I need a 100GB memory brain to store all the keywords, essay point and sample answers... Hahaha... I wish~~~It's just a wish~~~

I should have watched this earlier...Sigh.. Lazy ching! Only managed to have a look yesterday night around 2.30am. Thought this perhaps could give me some guidance!!! So, what I found? Oh gosh, I found useful tips la!!!

Now, I found a good place to do my revision... The National Library. A place where I can run away from all the frustrating issues. I'm trying very hard to keep all the annoying issues aside, I'm trying..but, frankly, sometimes I still think of it...Arghh....Frustrated already!!! Shoo~~~~~~~~ Shoo~~~~~~~~~~

Henny, Fennee, Fion and Hy... Lets have the Ladies night on again after my final!!! Miss you guys badly!!!

HC will be alright soon. *wink*

My good listener when I am down...Support me...

damn f**cking

Study week is going to end.. Geerrr.... final exam!!!

Sadly, study week seems to be a hectic week to me. Its really a bad time. I have never had such pressure doomsday before... I just couldn't concentrate on my studies and I have another 3 days to final.. Final!!! Final!!! Its final!!! Why all this came in at the same time? I am not going to tell whats going on now... I just want to put this aside. Its killing me!!! Because of this, I can't even concentrate, broke into tears again and again. How I wish grandma and grandpa are still here... Ya...how I wish... But, will never come true...

someone passed away

I am preparing my law summary notes. And, suddenly, I heard the drum sounds. Ya, I know, its the monk who hit on the drum (time to pray, pray and chant for the deceased). And later it followed by a light thunder storm. Ya, it's going to rain (it is raining already). They are sad, that their beloved mother has passed away. And the God is crying.

And it reminded me of my dearest grandpa. He passed away in 2006. It was the 13th day of CNY. I break down, I cried and sat on the floor in the ICU. I have no more grandparents. Ah ma and ah gong are gone. So, noone will share my happiness. I have no grandparents to sit with me in the same table on my wedding dinner. They are not going to ''yum seng'' with me. They are not going to get the allowances from me when I start to work. They are not going to see my babies. They would not be there when I need help and a shoulder. For that very moment, I lose them. Lose people to share happiness and sadness with me. They brought me up and I felt guilty when I recalled for those irrespectful deeds that I have done towards them. But, they have no complaints at all. THEY ARE MY DEAREST BELOVED AH MA AND AH GONG!!!

It is raining now, so meaning that people will not visit the deceased house to pay a last respect? It happened in grandpa's funeral too. Because, grandpa passed away during CNY, and usually chinese would prefer not to attend events that will bring bad luck to them, so called ''pantang''!!! To me, I don't care whether it is a tradition or whatsoever called pantang. What I hoped was only people (I mean it can be anyone who knows my grandpa to come and pay a last respect, I don't even mind if you just walk in and pray and leave) to come and pray grandpa at least A LAST RESPECT. When babies were borned, the parent will have parties or dinners to celebrate the happiness of a new borned baby. But, why not people take the effort to at least step in the house to give a bow. I don't think that it takes a day energy to just step in. Perhaps what I am expecting is just merely a fairness to my grandpa or respect from people from my grandpa or notice fron people that a good man passed away. There wasn't much people on the funeral day as it was ''chap goh mei''. To me, it was really saddening. Because, noone accompany ah gong for his last journey.

Anyway, I am proud of him.

Recalling this incident has made me broke into tears again.

To ah gong: ''take care of ah ma okay. love your always'' From the naughty ah ching!

Fatty Ching

I'm gonna be the fatty ching. Erm, am already a fatty ching. So, now will be mummy and daddy's fattiest ching...

I started craving for food when I finished my last assignment (the most hectic one among all assignments). Why?

Ya, stress!!! I have less than 3 weeks to final from now. It's the final countdown from now... *I left 18 days to final* -Gosshhh-

HC, no more wandering. Business law, the most hectic subject. I'm gonna torture myself to finish reading the whole textbook and preparing summary notes within 2 weeks.

The Summer School name list is out. I ned to make decision again. DIlemma~~~ If I take, I will have to study during the cny holidays. If I don't, of course I could enjoy a long long cny holidays BUT I don't wanna stress up again when I need to take 4+1 subjects altogether next semester and there would be at least 4 assignments too. To be frank, I have no conclusion yet since the final registration is on 31 Oct. Would consider whether others are joining or not.

I WANT FOOD!!!

pissed off

What the......!!!! I am pretty angry now. Get frustrated with it.

I hate doing group assignment!!!

WTF!!!

saman

I was found in fault. I parked my car at the roadside and went to buy some stuffs just now. I saw there were cars being parked there and thinking that police will hardly saman on saturday. So, I headed and parked the car there. Who knows when I am out from the shop, the police was there already and I saw a receipt being slipped on the mirror.

Bad day...

Summer School

At first I have no intention at all to attend the summer school. But, I saw my coursemates were filling up the form and I just asked. Never thought of attending it also. Just want to find out why don't they take a rest during this coming summer holidays.

Ya, there were right too. By taking 2 core subjects now, then you won't stress up yourself in the next sem. Like how we are suffering now, we don't even have a break after the mid term break. We have assignments due every consecutive week, and till today, we have one more assignment to be done and due next week. Then, its revision week and later FINAL!!! Then summer holidays... 3 months man. I can enjoy the chinese new year and go vacation with my big families. -giggles-

But, I don't wanna stress up myself next sem. So, I headed to the aup office to get the form filled and handed in. However, I still have to wait for seat confirmation and I can decide later whether t join or not. I'm still wondering whether I should take the summer school class.

Sigh... I'm having headache already. Don't even want to think of it also. And finals is around, got to work hard already. And and and, I want to have shopping spree after my finals. Yeah~~~

bye my hair

Saying goodbye to my hair..
I have trimmed my hair and it was quite short.
Sigh~~~ I shouldn't have entered that salon. I preferred Eddy-the hair stylist man!!!

wtf

Wtf !!!! I am almost done with the assignment and today only I heard that I have to change my report format!!! Errhhhhhhhhh..........

I'm going crazy!!! Can I just get rid of this report as soon as possible and I wanna start doing my law notes!!!! I still think that my report format is acceptable. Hate the latest format I heard!!!

Gosh...........got to suffer to restructure it again... Wtf!

If

If people can do this, why can't you?

This suddenly appeared in my mind as I was doing my assignment now. Indeed, I expected it to be done last week though the submission date has postponed but I'm always expecting to do the best that I could. And till today, I am reading through it again and again, making amendments again and again. I believe that my efforts will pay off one day!

If people can score high distinction, why can't you?

Parents used to tell this to their children. But, sometimes, that's the initiative of him/her that matters. Right? No, but sometimes, you can't compare certain things with others. Like what the Chinese said, ''you compare, you'll suffer''.

So, in conclusion, the statement ''if people can do this, why can't you?'' is it true? Meaning that if people can climb the KK mountain, so can I? Headache headache......

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GRANDPA AND GRANDMA, WHERE ARE YOUR?

I MISS YOUR SO SO MUCH...

NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE, DO NOT WORRY ABOUT US.

HOPE YOUR ARE DOING WELL THERE. DO COME AND TELL ME IF YOU NEED ANYTHING THERE.

100 HUGS AND 100 MUACKS...

I LOVE YOU, GRANDPA AND GRANDMA!!!!

21.02.2009

People must be thinking that I am crazy since I started to plan my next year birthday. Hahaha...

Yes, its HC 21st birthday next year on 21.02.2009. So sad that next year after 21st of February, I will no longer be under age already. Mummy, can I stay at 18 years old forever ar? Sigh...

Had dinner with the HRians yesterday and got to know that Fion is getting married. Congratulations first!!! And her wedding dinnner will be held on 21.02.2009 too. So, I'll be celebrating my 21st birthday on a wedding dinner? Is something different. And Henny and I will be the ''dai kam jie'' that day? Hahaha... Hrmm....will plan this after final with my darlingsss....

Hey Fion, I'll be damn free after my finals and if you need any helper do call me ya. Hrmm, I'll charge you of course. There is no free lunch k... *giggles*