:)

He is happy, so am I.

Thanks to everyone, you guys are the best. Love ya always.

1st week of holidays

Gosh, my 1 week holidays gone. And I've around 3 weeks + holidays left only. What I've been doing these days. I'd say, days are pretty bored, but I enjoyed it pretty well.

1. Last weekend, headed to Bukit Beruntung early in the morning to send the car for service then off to Pavilion to get hy's present.
2. Met the Maxwellian for karaoke. Met new friend-Dinesh. And to the Maxwellian, don't spoil my image ok.I'm not the 'big sister' la...
3. Went Pavilion again to get my stuffs. My stuffs = shopping.
4. Attended hy's 21st birthday party.

5. 15/06/2009 - Its ah ma's Chinese lunar death anniversary. As usual mummy, uncle, auntie and I went to ''grandhouse'' (its ah ma & ah gong house, so we called it grandhouse) for paying ceremony.

6. Prepare hy's handmade birthday card and delivered it to her house. Though it was one day late, but its still the month for Gemini. :)
7. Got recipe from auntie and I baked the raisin cake.
8. Went to Ampang road for a job interview. Wtf, the management don't even inform that there was no training and wasted our time to travel there. And because for that interview, I walked under the rain and I caught flu now. Wtf!!! Went to KLCC with friends after that and did some shopping.
9. Went Pavilion again, yea, its Pavilion again, to have lunch with mummy and walk around. Bought a pen for Tch. The future inspector. Hahaha.....
10. Today. I just found the cupcake recipe. Will try them out within this few days.

Other than these, what I've been doing. Sleep. It has become my favourite past time and I sleep for more than 14 hours a day. And I'm getting very blur now. I think I should stop sleeping so much, I shall go for jogging in the morning, clear my messy and dirty desk, packed wardrobe, messy shoe rack.

its =

If you're expecting something from people, do put some effort and time to make people feel better too. Don't ever be so selfish. Things go around, the same thing will come to you one day in future eventually.

still dreaming

HC is still dreaming on her birthday dream.

I had a wonderful 21st birthday this year and so I hope that my friends also have and will have their blast celebration. What's my birthday dream? I'd say not many of my friends know, its countable with your fingers.

I wish to celebrate my birthday at the beach. And the guests are all my friends, despite close friends or not, it could be anyone that I've met. A piano placed at the beach and my darling will sing me the song of ''yan huo de ji jie'', ''jue bu neng shi qu ni'', ''liu xing yu'' and ''di yi shi jian''. Why all F4? No particular reasons, I had this idea when I listened to their songs some time ago. Erm, ''di yi shi jian'' maybe specially for all my friends. Besides, I do hope to see fireworks at the beach. And....something that I think no one can do. I want to see 21 balloons at/on the sea ....erm...I just don't know how to express it. See the picture below. Its kinda simple. I edited this photo before my 21st birthday and am always looking at it.

And 3 more days to 21 June then it will be officially 4 months away from my exact birthday. Yet, till today, I'm still wishing that I could have this. How I wish.....

Mr. SJ, I do take your words seriously. Keep your promise that you won't disappoint me.
Mr. CheeWei, I still remember you promised me about the cupcakes.
I still remember them very well. I really do hope that my dream/wish will come true one day since it cannot be fulfilled on my 21st birthday... (''_'')

Its over

Finally, semester 2 ended.

I'm currently not in the mood....since this afternoon. I have tried my best, gave what is my maximum to it. And I do really hope that it will turn out to meet my expectations. I have nothing to say at this time. All I need is just to be alone, at the cafe, and refresh myself. Though I said I tried my best, somehow, I did lagged in between the period and it shouldn't happen! Why.... And my heart still beat so so fast like how it was before entering the exam hall this morning.... Arghhh....

Anyway, I know its over and there is no point thinking of it because I can't change the situation. I shall go for the shopping spree................... That's my only way to release my pressure.

I.......

I just feel like crying....
I don't know what can I do next...
Perhaps I have not paid enough effort...
I have tried and did my ever best...
I just don't feel like saying anything now...
I wanna shout out....
I want to take a good rest (I have not had soundness nights for quite some time)...
But I can't lag on at this time...


2 more papers to go.... and now I'm really tired. I have no energy to even move faster...
But, I know that I should not give up at this point of time !!!
I know that I can do it.
I will prove it!!!
I will go for it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'll keep my promise!!!!!!
Trust me!!!!!!

FINAL

Ya....3 more days to the final. And now I am dipping myself to FIM. FIM again. I need to do research again this time. The essay questions are given and its not easy either. I'll have to read bulk of printing materials, notes, etc. But I learnt that I will never read all materials instead I'll pick the most related/necessary one. Else, with all the materials I had, it will definitely make me crazy and in the end I don't get a conclusion for those materials at all. I'm sure others will agree with me, the more you read, the more confuse you are. So, take the most related one will do.

National Library, here I come.................................. shhhh......................

After FIM will be the accounting and marketing paper. Gosh........................ Got to memorise all the formulas.............................. GAMBATEH!!!

Back to my revision.....good luck to me!!!

I SWEAR

It is 3.26 a.m now.

Finally, I am done with the last assignment for this semester. Though its the last one, but I just feel upset that how come HC is doing last minute work. Ya, no one expect that HC will do last minute work. All because of the previous assignment - FIM!!! After handling the FIM assignment on last Thursday, and you never how exhausted am I. I just fell to sleep after lunch when I reached home and slept till 7pm + that day. And I wen to bed that day at 12am as well. Friday, I thought of doing the assignment but ended up sleeping again, BECAUSE I REALLY NEED MORE REST!!! I forced myself to look on my assignments, but my eyes just couldn't stand any longer. That's why I am now here. If not, you can find me in your dreams.

Argh......................

I SWEAR THAT I'LL NEVER REPEAT THIS ANYMORE!!!

That's not HC!!! By the way, FIM assignment was really the toughest assignment I experienced!!!
I used to complete my assignment few days before the due date but now.......................... Got really upset especially when May was surprised that she saw me online because I was still doing my assignment. Her reply ''how come...?'' really made me feel guilty. This assignment is not a good piece of work either. WTF!!!!

Vanessa Lau Hui Ching, never ever do that again!

RELEAS-ED

YES... I'm released. Though I have one more assignment to go, but no worries as I have drafted the essay pretty much earlier and I shall complete it within this 2 days. So that I can attend the relative reunion dinner on this coming Saturday.

The FIM assignment was really the most difficult assignment (so far) I would say. I have never had such experience. You know, over the weekends or even started from last 2 weeks, I stayed up till 3 - 4am or even 5am to do the assignment. And of course I didn't sleep well even if I get to sleep for 2 hours before I wake up to go campus. I tried to not to go to bed so late as I know my body can never stand that, and I'd definitely fall sick again. And, I had fever, flu, then cough (sounds like swine flu symptoms). Then, recover, then now I feel cold. Having a little running nose. Sigh sigh sigh, all because of this assignment!!!!! I personally don't really like sitting in front of the computer for a long duration, what more I got to sit in front of my laptop from day till the next morning.
Yesterday I even spent 6 hours at Starbucks, trying to complete the assignment. Why Starbucks? I have no choice since LiSun and mine laptop couldn't connect to the campus wifi. And we need the access all the time when we are doing the assignment. So I suggested to go Pyramid Starbucks, and of course we get to discuss those assignment stuffs immediately rather than waiting from the reply thru calls or sms or messenger. And you know its better to talk face-to-face rather than calls or sms. Sometimes you just don't get to convey the 'proper meaning' of you message to the other party thru calls or sms. Though messenger is the cheapest way, but still I think messenger only helps you to reach your friend easily when she is connected on the other end. But the problem is still the same, sometimes when words are typed and sent over there, it might turned out to be translated to other thing. The probability of high accuracy of reaching the correct message convey is very low indeed. Maybe what you want to tell can be translated that ''you are in anger'' on the other end. Hence you need those icons to make it more specific.

Anyhow, I am done with the FIM assignment. And I can totally feel the difference between before and after completing the assignment. Before: You are stressed out, you feel that your brain is heavy, and couldn't function well too. After: You don't get to concentrate in class because you are lack of rest. Your brain don't even function. All you want is to sleep! But the main thing is that you feel the relief, truly.

I'm not going to face the computer too much already, the 3 weeks doomsday had made my skin dried up and dull. I need a massage now!!!

Back to tutorials....

Now I know why....

Now I understand what they meant. Now I know that why she has been moving from one group to another. Now I know how's the feelings when being ill-threatened. Now I swear that I will never grouping with her. She made me screwed up.

I personally will admit that to certain extent it is my fault for not communicating well with her. And I do admit that it is my fault for telling her last minute that we wanna complete the task this weekend. It is my fault that I did not make myself clear about our tasks. My faults.... Girls now I know what your meant and I really experienced it!!! But its too late. Nonetheless, I will never expect anything on her and we shall complete the task on our own.

I love working in group but not in assignments!!!

Back to assignments

Frustration

I got frustrated with the way she did her work. She is giving me shit!!! I'm not being bad k. Since its a group assignment, each of us play our own responsibility and try to cooperate with each other. You got to go and get the books your own and do your research for your particular section. But ended up asking me what's the definition, what does that mean, and even asking me ''DID YOU BORROW ANY BOOK? CAN BORROW ME''!!! Wtf!!!! Sounds harsh right. Yes, I really got pissed off with her till I wanna scold the four letter words to her. She even asked me to help her photocopy then bring it to her since I wanna use it. Wth!!!

I borrowed her the book and she said she will photocopy and return to me. In the end, I need to let her bring back home the book again and again till I surrender and said ''you take the book la, I don't want to wait anymore, I want the introduction soon.''. Yes, I totally surrender. I have no choice but to compromise. Ya, I should use the word ''compromise'' because again, its a group work. And, when today I was doing the assignment I feel that I need the book, she replied me I return to you on Monday then. Hey, come on!!! The assignment will due on Thursday k!!! Don't tell me you want me to do last minute work and you should know that the Turnitin is pretty sensitive. I need to hand in our work as soon as possible.

You know how pissed off am I. You know how I wished that I never have a group member like her. Really got very pissed off the way she did her work. She told me she is busy so she can't find info about the monetary policy, so she would just write what she had. Hey, miss, don't say you don't have ample of time. If you don't have ample of time then how about us. At this moment or for this week we have the accounting assignment due and FYI you no need to do anything okay except cutting the articles from newspaper. Moreover, you don't even ask about the assignment except when you need to sign the declaration form of the assignment. Come on. You don't have time, then how about us!!!!

Frustrated + Disappointed = Pissed off

Back to assigment.....got to crack my head for the 6000 words assignment

Shopping

Ya ya ya. I said before I will definitely hit the shopping mall soon right. And, I headed to pyramid after the class finished this afternoon.

I have been trying to control myself to splurge on clothings or any accessories this time. So guess what I did? Shopping what. I shop for groceries lo. Its the first time alone shopping for groceries. Fun tough. I can conclude that the satisfaction level when you see what you bought comparing for ''normal girls shopping (clothings etc) is totally different. Anyhow, each has its different feelings after the shopping. Shopping for groceries is totally different from shopping for clothings. When you shop or I shop for groceries I will just see what I want and take it and throw them into the trolley and if there are few types of packaging it will involve some mathematic calculations which is quite fun though. Hahaha.. 

What I bought....

end up using too many plastics....

and I never thought that these things will end up to an amount of 160bucks, which was totally out of my expectation. I thought maybe it should be around 100 bucks. And there was a little incident when I made my payment. I paid by credit card but it took long time for it to process. Really long time till you feel like taking out another card to try but unfortunately I didn't bring along any extra cards as I have took them out from my purse, thinking that I shouldn't bring so many cards with me just in case I am robbed. Choi!!! Plus the safety out there is really terrible. I started to worry and think that ''this time cham liao, I only have 2 dollars cash with me, how am I going to pay this amount''. And, I have taken my ATM cards out from my purse since I don't use it also. Luckily the cashier was patience enough and willing to try and try and try again. Till its approved. Woosh......luckily lol as I was about to call LiSun to come and help me since they are the nearest to me. They are having lunch at Tony Romas. When I was about to call, it was approved. Really thank god!!! So it reminded me that I have to put extra cards in my purse just in case any emergency. 

I hate that

I hate that when I'm telling my friends things about me and they will just suddenly make you pissed off. Ya, when they said ''you are like that one de meh'', ''jia jia''. What the hell is that. As though that I'm being a faker.

Especially those who always said they know you well, indeed, they know nothing. I love nature. I prefer trees instead of development. If I am given a choice, I would prefer to go back to the old days where there is not much development and people are kind and considerate. And at least there isn't much liars out there. People do business in a genuine way. People smile and greet at you, not cursing at you all the time. People that are not selfish. Day by day, things changed, even thoughts in mind have to catch up with the latest trend. For say, if you can't accept lesbian you are just too ''out-dated''. If you can't accept pre-marital sex, you should go back to the 70s. Hey, come on. I'm just who I am. I can change my attitude, anything. But to an acceptable extent. But why must I change my thinking. That's mine thinking. No one should be the intruder of my thoughts, thinking, my own state of mind, neither I can be the intruder of your thinking.

If you are my friends, believe in what I said if you think that you know me well though. If I tell lies, you should know it. Don't just add on words that will hurt. If I'm being fake in front of you, meaning you are just noone to me!!!!

Headache

Having a bad headache now.

Trying to think of ways which is cheap and can release my pressure. But, shopping is the only best way for me. Hahaha.... Alright, its time to pamper myself. I'll hit one of the shopping malls soon and daddy please be prepared when the credit card statement arrives. :P

Stress... Stress... Stress....

As usual, attended the marketing tutorial and lecturer this morning and I really got a little pissed off with her. When she said she is going to return our report 1 during this week block teaching in front of VU lecturer, to show him our quality of work. Can you don't be so cruel? Oh god, meaning our work sucks right? I really worry, as my html referencing was totally wrong. I just copy and paste the html referencing for in-text reference. Hell. She will definitely deduct lots of my marks from it. Hopefully, Sir will be kind enough to me this weekend.  

Saturday date. Ya, I can't wait for our Saturday date. Our date for steamboat. Its our first date for steamboat. I can't wait that. All because I can't wait to eat the fishballs, prawn, crab, and everything. And not to forget that I can't wait for the ''cream promise''!!! *evil laughs*

Stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.............................................................................

HELP!!!

HELP me....!!! 

The FIM research essay is driving me crazy... And, now, I am almost half dead. My brain is full with all kinds of info but I have no idea what to write on it. How should I ''compare and contrast the financial institution of US and Australia'' - my current problem. The essay title is''Compare and contrast US and Australia's financial system''. OH GOSH.................. 

And, something suddenly popped up when I was reading the textbooks just now. Should I switch to marketing ar? At least there is no history related stuffs. Hahaha... Ya, finance has just too many history. How they evolved overtime la. Deregulation la... Reregulation la.... Yor..............................

Erhem...this is for the marketing report only and......

THIS IS THE FIM one!!!

My desk can never be neat and clean one day. All books are being stacked around me. Underneath the table, beside the table, on the chair, below the chair..........Woosh.............As though I'm that hardworking lolz.

HELP HELP HELP......I need to finish it by today!!!!!

Relax

Ya....relax. :) Time to relax but not too long because I'll have to back to my assignments later again. I wanna finish them as soon as possible. I really need more time to buck up my FIM. I just realized that my understanding on it is really not enough for me at all. Luckily, I managed to choose Australia as one of my research essay country, it helps a bit anyway.

Well well well, the days have been quite wonderful though I'm not attached now. Hahaha... Crazy ya! Meeting up with my friends for thier 21st birthday celebrationS. Busy with my assignments, tests and tutorials. Catching up with the Singapore drama as well and The Golden Path is the drama I'm currently into it! I do watch Six Children - a korean drama sometimes too. Frankly, I've get bored with the Hong Kong series. I know their acting skills very well and don't really see any changes on them from one drama to another. I do catch some HK dramas too, but it depends. Not all though. I know there are people who watch every HK drama. Its kinda boring to me la.

My schedule is really pack and how I wish that I can have more than 24 hours a day. Ya, you will always say this when you have insufficient time and when it seems like you are working against the clock. I think there won't be anyone who doesn't wish that there will be extra hours a day. At least you live in the earth longer! Haha... My wishlist for this moment: going for a spa, it really entice me especially I'm doing my marketing report now which is all about SPA! Sigh, how I wish to go for a spa now and indulge myself  and leave the assignments, tests, problems behind. I want to go for a shopping spree, splurge through all the malls in city and aiming at the penang malls after my finals, hehe. And hopefully that was when the sales was on. And you know when you've pressure you tend to eat more. Your appetite is totally different. Fried kuey teow, Damansara Palace's dim sum, Super Tanker's dishes, TGI Fridays, Marche, steamboat, NanXiang's siu long pao, sharkfin soup and many more. Slrrp, yummy yummy...

My online blogshop was setted up last month during my mid semester break but the response wasn't good. I guess our items were just too mature. Anyway, I will update the latest one soon after the photoshoot which I'll be doing it next week. And I will be the model, I need to start my diet plan. Arghh...but I want food!!! Thanks Charl who willing to spare me her time to be the cameragirl! I believe in your skill, haha....

And, I shall leave some space for the 2 VIPs below.

Date: 5th April, 2009

Venue: Manjalara steakhouse

Happening: The Princess Birthday

Date: 17th April, 2009

Venue: Kimgary @ the Curve

Happening: ChinLoong's belated birthday dinner

Don't think that you can avoid from the ''CREAM CAKE''... Haha... That's the spcial-of-the-day!

His 21st birthday girft. Use it till the max ya. There is a reason behind this. Write hard with it and enjoy your new college life soon!

Surprises were carried out throughout the celebration. At first, I was to pick him up and I forced him to change his casual wear to formal wear and emphasised that I'll bring him to have candlelight dinner where only me and him will attend. In fact we will be meeting up the others at the curve. He really believed that everyone was not free! First surprise was when we entered the restaturant, he saw all have been seated and looking at him. Eh, Goh Chin Loong we will never dump you alone on your birthday k!!! Cheers. We continued our lies that we just managed to have dinner last minute and no preparation was done. We apologised for no cake during his birthday. He believed also! He also believed that we never buy any present for him. When we were done with our meals and asked the waiter to clean up the table and pretend that we are leaving and planning for second round and the cake was carried out suddenly and we sang him the birthday song. And the plate of cream was carried out a while later after the candle blowing ceremony was done. We keep our ''cream promise'' lolz. And the present was given to him later as well. We went for second round at one of the cafe there. I've no idea what was the cafe name. And, the dj sang the birthday song to him. Songs were dedicated to him as well. He said that was the first time he have had so many surprises on his birthday as all the while his birthday celebration was really simple. 

Ya, I personally feel that I want my friends to have an unforgettable 21st birthday. I will continue to plan you guys birthday as well. And the next one coming up will be ShyhJia and EngHsiang one. I have had some ideas of the celebration. I assure that you guys will love me till the max. Muahahahaha.....

Back to my assignment.......US regulation.... Australia regulation..... RBA, The Fed...............yayayayay........

Still....

I'm still on medication. Ya, it has been 2 weeks since I'm on medication. Its really torturing. I have to bear with the food attraction all the time. Though its a good time for me to diet but I need FOOD, I'm under pressure now!

Okay, at first, I was on Chinese herbal medication, I felt better but then my throat was swollen. Mummy wanted me to see the family doctor where her medicine is really strong and will definitely cure but the day I went to the clinic, my doctor was not there and I have no choice but seek for another on duty doctor consultation. Then, my fever subside, but I still have severe cough and flu. I don't wanna take the western medicine anymore, hence, I went to another Chinese doctor whom I have been seeing since I was a baby. And, guess what, he retired already and his son took over the job. My throat is feeling better now, and I've to return 2 days later for continuous consultation. I think I should fork out some time for exercise. My body is really weak.

Loads of assignments and tests to be done till the study week. I have FIM research with me, where I need to fork out 6000 words for that piece of work. Gosh~~~ I'm trying to read more articles nowadays to strengthen my vocab and hope that it will help when I'm writing my research essay later. And, I still prefer individual assignment. Group assignment does not help me to ease my pressure, instead, it is giving me more pressure than I would have had. Maybe that's my problem since I couldn't communicate well with my members. Ish!!!

Happy 5th birthday to my beloved cousin - Cheng Yew. We had a mini celebration with him today at auntie's house and I got to try her home cook. Its not that bad eating home cook after all. Catering food really bored us!!! :) (I'm 21, gosh, what was I doing when I'm 5?)

I'm sick!

I've been so well and till yesterday I started to feel bad. I could feel that my throat is drying up and I need lots of water. But it seems that even 3litre of water a day is not enough for me. Aiks, I wanna get rid of this as soon as possible. I never want to be sick when I'm attending classes as it really torture me a lot.

My desk was kinda messy now. I have a big tumbler with me which is 1.5L large and 2 cups of drinks. One is from mummy, some salty thing which could help to ease the sore throat. Another one just touch down, from daddy, a type of herbs which could help to cure flu. Too many drinks and I need to go toilet now, again!

This afternoon, I went to mummy's office to meet her up before heading for my dentist appointment. As usual I'll just walk in to her office and straight to her desk. Today, I stepped in and this Sweden guy (i know he is the manager, a new manager. PS: mummy's office always change manager one!) greet me and ask who am I looking for. When I told him that :I'm looking for my mother. I said this twice. Because he can't hear me neither I can make myself clear because my voice was pathetically sounds like a MAN! That's horrible! Okay, he thought I intend to see ''Margaret'' which also sounds like ''Mother''. Anyway, my mother is Margaret. Woo...luckily. Else I got to start the ''chicken and duck conversation''. The manager was pretty handsome. But he never wants to tell his age. Mummy guess he was about 20-30 years old. But I guess he's definitely below 25years old. He looks pretty young and the most handsome one among all the managers that I've seen. I used to go mummy office so I know the managers a little. Sigh la, if I didn't have sore throat, definitely I will chat more with him. Hahaha.... And I'll get his facebook or msn then. Wakakaka....

Okay. Back then. I'm supposing doing my marketing report now. I come to blog because I have no idea to write anything. I need some ideas. The title is: ''Customer service in finance sector - will it win customers''. And at the same time I got to check Mt 's report. Ya, I'm a English teacher. Hehe... I think I need to read more and more and more. I wanna master English. And its for my own good since I'm going Aussie later.

Finally, I get to dream of grandpa and grandma yesterday. I dreamt that grandpa was having a high fever and I saw a few packs of Chicken rice beside him where I couldn't really recognize the address. If I'm not mistaken, I think I saw something like Seremban and Jalan Raja Laut. But this two location is not linked at all. Additionally, I saw grandma too but I never get to talk to her more. How grandpa looks in my dream was exactly like how he looked like when he passed away. Sob sob~~~ Ah gong and ah ma, ah ching really miss you all. Come to my dream and I have many things to tell and share with your. Please come back to my dream. The dream god if it does exists, please allow my ah gong and ah ma to come to my dream. Please~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

lost

Well.. I'm lost. I have had all Australia Universities information that I want. And, till today I have not decide on anything neither I want to transfer or not. Transfer to Aus, yes, this is definitely what I dream for. But, what am I still wondering about? What makes me pullback to make a confirm decision? I'm just not being myself now. Lagging, wandering, dreaming, wasting time and leave a question mark behind me wherever I go. That's why I am lost. I lost my way. I lost my target. Where is the hardworking ching!!! Shit....Wth... I just hate myself now.

LHC, you gonna make a decision before your mid semester break ends. Else, you will forever be lost!

read through it and really understand them

爱一人

如果你不爱一个人,

请放手.

好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,

请放开自己,

好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .

但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,

有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.

女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,

我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,

我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,

我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，

你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，

你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，

你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!