i need you $o much

You came at the right time, I need you so much indeed. =} My purse is out of cash, I have bank in all my angpau money and the previous salary. What I have was only one hundred plus one month ago. And how I have been surviving for the past one month? I wondered.. really proud of myself. I am controlling myself for not swiping credit cards too frequent and how can I bear for not going shopping, wandering outside with friend, outdoors activities, etc? Praised myself so much. Kekekeke.... Since I joined my new company, I have been waiting for the pay day and there is just another two days to go only. 26 march, 26 march, 26 march, please come faster. To be frank, I have only not more than twenty bucks in my purse now. I was so happy when I received a call from dad, thinking that daddy must be asking me to prepare the food. Wooo, ''Auntie stroked 4D, and you guys are getting 1000 from auntie'', a message came from another side. But I was moody at that time and just gave a cool response, ''Oh, yes ar, okay then!''. You came at the right time my dearest 1000 bucks!!! I need you so much and I can go for shopping finally. Hmm, let me think where will be my first destination...

Help Me

After visiting education fair last Sunday, my brain was stuck with the same things. Everyday I am only thinking about which University is better and will be much more friendly to my dad's pocket. Actually, I wanted to study abroad so much, this is one of my dream. I wanted to have the experience studying abroad, learning to be independent and also enjoy the backpacker's life. Starting your new life in a new environment, getting to know new people and get to learn to bear with all types of problem. Aren't that a good experience that you can only have once in your lifetime when you are still consider as a ''student''. I must study damn damn hard, to reach my dream one day, I knew that I can do it if I really want.
Sigh, everyone is worrying about whether they can get to enroll local U, me too. If I am offered to study international business in UUM, I think most probably I'll go. But, the probability is very small right? :p Why Chinese and Indians can't be treated like how the Malays are being treated by the government? Ask the politicians -lah!!!! Damn pissed off to talk about this...

you are out!

Oh gosh, I really have no idea why I got to know you? Ya, don't ask why! ''That's fate''. Argh..I really got pissed off after having a conversation with you. What are you thinking actually? As though that I forced you to wait for me! As though I am fooling around with you! Please man, don't waste your time since I have told you that ''you are rejected''. I don't mind if you really think that I am the girl who you want to be with, and you don't mind waiting till I changed my mind one day. I got no reason to stop you on it. But, your message really made me jumped up. Ever since you confessed, I have been rejecting you and telling that I prefer to maintain our current status-friendship.

I am now considered big enough to think what I want right? Why can't you be ''more mature''? Let me recall how we get to know each other here... hmm, we got to know each other from tuition center and one day you found my friendster and asked for my contact, I gave you and you started calling. You confessed several times but I rejected and I remembered well that I did mention before that who knows what will happen in future. You told me that you will give yourself five years time, if you really can't get me to be your girlfriend then you'll give up. WTF -lah, if you really love someone why must you target yourself a duration to win her heart. I am human beings, not any object or dreams that you want to make it your own or achieve it. FINE then. One day I saw your personal message and made me think that you are in love, good then since you really got ''what you want'' just within the five years. Sometimes when I nudged you, you will tell me that how much you missed me but I am not blind okay!!! You are in love yet you are telling another girl that ''I MISSED YOU". Argh....... Then your calls were not that often, it was like once a week or two, or even worst, you will call me in the midnight (3am or 4am). Soon, I don't receive any calls from you. I felt nothing but realized, luckily that I didn't take your words seriously, else I might end up crying alone. =} Haha...

Til lately we got to chat with each other again in msn. First thing you are telling me that you missed me so much. Fine then. You told me that you have broke up with your ex and never want to be in any relationship anymore and saying that you don't trust love anymore because it really hurts you. I thought of cheering you up. You asked for my contact AGAIN!!! I have to say that I have been giving you my contact N times and you reasons are always ''i changed my number already ma''. Sigh, its alright anyway since we are friends what. You then started to call me. At first we have a normal chat like how friends do and soon you confessed again. After thinking of it, I rejected you and still I prefer to be friend. I trust my feelings despite what you promised till high sky because I really hove no feelings on you and also that ''you are not my cup of tea''! I know it hurts but that's true. No point lying with love because love with lies will not last long. You kept on asking that ''nothing to say is it? no chance to give me?''. I replied ''yes for this moment''. You then started barking at me telling that I am fooling you and you have been waiting for so long! Oh my goodness, since the day we started to keep in touch again till the day you confessed to me again was only one month long. (sangat lama ke?) Don't tell me that you have been waiting for me since your first confession k!!! At the same time you admitted that you just want to get a girlfriend last time when you confessed. Sigh, I really have no idea what I want to say next. Disappointed... One thing really made me want to bang on the monitor was when you said that.......

dun always b4 got a lesson

then u dun give a chance to others boys

is too unfair to me

wat not fair in this world?

juz yr thinking only

ok?

WTF!!!!Who you think you are?!!!? You made me got no confidence on you k!!!? I am trying to be good with you but you are barking at me with all this!!?!! YOU ARE OUT!!! NOT GENTLEMAN AT ALL!!! Do you know that it really hurts? I do admit that there was a few times that I rejected to answer your calls, so?!!
I saved the conversation so to refer back the next day, I don't mean anything doing this because at that time I was busying doing my application and it was nearly 1am, I got to wake up early the next day to work, and he was just grumbling how unfair I treated him in msn. When I wanted to reply, I only read the last few sentence(lazy to scroll up) was already enough for me to stop replying him. He was being too over, I just left without saying bye. No point arguing with him. Who cares, whatever it is, IS OVER!!!

i'm lost...

Hmm.... Finally I got my results though it is not results ''flying with colours'' but I am satisfied with what I have achieved. Should be satisfied with it -lah man!!! I studied day and night, sick and recovered and sick again, sacrificed my tv time, shopping time, supper time, and yumcha session somemore!!! Now I totally understand why the seniors are telling that ''stpm is not easy ar, don't play play''. Stpm has been trying to killing me! But, luckily I'm still alive. Hahaha... No doubt, its really the second toughest exam in the world!
And now, is the time to make decisions, but, I am lost right now. What should I do next? I really have no idea. Private U? Local U? Private U? Local U? Should I apply upu or leave the chances to others who really needs it?(as though that i'm that kind-hearted :p) Sigh... and what I'm thinking to do is only business, business and only business, and perhaps advertising after yinly roughly briefed me what is advertising about. It was quite interesting though.
I'm really getting frustrated to think about all this things and what I have planned before entering f6 totally gone because of my maths that sucks! Let me browse thru the education fair this weekend and finalize out. Wish me..